Fade Away (feat. Jon​-​Jon Obiano of Paradox Lockdown)

from Notti Insonni (Sleepless Nights) by Illtalian

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From the "Notti Insonni" EP.

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Verse 1



Wake up in the morning, I can see my hands shaking/

I can't find the aspirin, man my heads aching/

I feel nervous and I don't why/

I just woke up, but I want to cry/

To scream, to run, to leave this place/

To do anything else but face the day/

It's an anxiety attack, I know it well/

I've had enough that I can tell/

When it starts, and man has it started/

It feels like all my courage has suddenly departed/

Broken hearted, lyin on the floor/

Some days I don't wanna face life no more/

And nobody talks about this stuff in their songs/

They just ignore it and try to pretend like nothing's wrong/

But not me, one more day and I might crack/

Just another day ruined by anxiety attacks/



Chorus:

Now I can’t breathe

Take this curse away from me

I think I need a magical remedy

A little something more to help me sleep

I have nothing left to hide

Let this hell-storm pass me by

There’s nothing else that I can say

I wish this day would fade away





















Verse 2

There's a cramp in my mouth and my jaw feels tight/

The doctor says I'm grinding my teeth at night/

And if I don't stop there's gonna be damage/

Man it's, kinda crazy, I didn't plan it/

To be this way, I need to pray/

But honestly God seems far away/

I’ve battled with anxiety for most of my life/

And these have left scars that I see still at night/

As a kid I used to have break downs/

Every day, and I don’t know how/

I ever dealt with it, I can still remember/

Throwing up each morning in December/

I couldn’t cope with the crushing fears in my mind/

So every day before class, in my room I’d cry/

And each night I would always pray/

That maybe this time I could just fade away/



(Chorus)







Verse 3

On the outside now I’m as calm as can be/

I’ve learned to keep my feelings only to me/

And that's a problem, I'm at rock bottom/

I'm Bruce Wayne and this world is Gotham/

But what’s awesome is that I found hope/

I finally realized at the end of my rope/

That the only two places where I feel at peace/

Is on the stage, and at Jesus' feet/

So even though sometimes God feels distant/

I remind myself that I'm still Christian/

It ain't about feeling, it's about faith/

And I can be brave till this fear fades away/ (x2)



(Chorus)

credits

from Notti Insonni (Sleepless Nights), released January 8, 2015
Written by Thomas Iannucci and Cameron Williamson. Produced by Cameron Williamson. Piano and vocals by Jon-Jon Obiano. Vocals by Thomas Iannucci.

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Illtalian Hawaii

Born in Hawaii during the summer of 1992, 23 year-old Italian-Filipino rapper Thomas Iannucci (aka Illtalian) was raised on the island of Kauai, where he currently resides. An award-winning songwritier, Illtalian is also an unsigned rapper, and released his first studio EP "Notti Insonni" in January of 2015. Stylistically, his music is often compared to Eminem, Macklemore, and Lecrae.

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