Matches (feat. Paradox Lockdown + Streetlight Cadence)

from Notti Insonni (Sleepless Nights) by Illtalian

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The penultimate song of the "Notti Insonni" EP.

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Verse 1


When I was born my parents lit a fire, and it burned inside my heart/
They told me I should never hide it, it was there to light up the dark/
But what they didn’t say was that sometimes the darkness hates the light/
I learned that lesson at a cost, and it would change my view on life/

As a boy, I was gentle, soft-spoken, and shy/
I just wanted to be liked, I wouldn’t even hurt a fly/
So I’d do what people asked me to, never stood up for myself/
Let others use and abuse my niceness, to amuse themselves/
I trusted peoples promises, never dreamed that they’d be lying/
And with every new deception I’d spend another night crying/
I learned that people will pretend to like you for a while/
But once you serve your purposes, they’ll ditch you with a smile/
Friendships are relative, and relatives can’t be trusted/
Cuz trusting anyone will only leave you more disgusted/
With each betrayal I felt I failed, my light was starting to dim/
If God had doomed me to this tale, why should I shine for Him?


(Chorus)

When the sun falls asleep/
Give me light, let me see/
Burst with fire, consume me/
Soon we'll see, these shadows weep/
Oh oh ohh/

Verse 2
Fast forward a couple of years, my light is all but gone/
Cynical and jaded, I blew it out to become strong/
Strong enough to fight back, to hurt the ones who hurt me/
If they dare to cross my path, I’ll never show them mercy/
I’ll destroy all those who come too close, they don’t care about me/
I don’t want or need your help, not even if I was drowning/
Tell me what choice I had, living with all these savages?
I’ve taken so much damage that I’m tired of changing these bandages/
My heart is breaking – no it’s broken – it never served me right/
It’s only been a weakness to me, like that stupid light/
And this poison that I’m feeling, it is seeping through my soul/
To the point where now I’m screaming when I’m sleeping, I can’t hold/
It any longer, it’s getting stronger, when did I get so cynical?
I get mad then I’m depressed and it repeats, it’s all so cyclical/
I’m hurting and I’m broken, but knowin that isn’t the key/
It all comes down to whether or not there’s still a spark in me/


(Chorus)


Verse 3
(sound of a match being lit) (music significantly slows for these four lines)
This fire in my heart, used to burn brighter than the sun/
But I put it out and now what’s done, can never be undone/
I’ll carry around these scars and burns as long as I will live/
But I carry something much greater now, the knowledge that God forgives/
(music begins to rise here)
When I was at my lowest, bitter, poisonous, ugly/
God took me in his own, scarred hands, and told me that He loved me/
And the fire in His eyes, reignited my empty soul/
It’s not the way it used to be, it’s just a smoldering coal/
But it’s a start and it’s enough to see exactly where my path is/
So instead of carrying a torch, I’ll bring a box of matches/
And every time the darkness strikes, I’ll strike another match/
And shine my light into the dark, to force the shadows back/
With every act of kindness, a match is being lit/
And I plan to set the world ablaze, never shall I quit/
As Christ forgave my sins, I forgive the world at last/
For this little light of mine, proves that the dark has finally met its



match.

credits

from Notti Insonni (Sleepless Nights), released January 8, 2015
Written by Thomas Iannucci, Cameron Williamson, and Jon-Jon Obiano. Produced by Cameron Williamson. Vocals by Thomas Iannucci. Vocals and Piano by Jon-Jon Obiano. Vocals by Cameron Williamson. Cello by Brian Webb. Violin by Jonathon Franklin. Accordion by Jesse Shiroma.

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Illtalian Hawaii

Born in Hawaii during the summer of 1992, 23 year-old Italian-Filipino rapper Thomas Iannucci (aka Illtalian) was raised on the island of Kauai, where he currently resides. An award-winning songwritier, Illtalian is also an unsigned rapper, and released his first studio EP "Notti Insonni" in January of 2015. Stylistically, his music is often compared to Eminem, Macklemore, and Lecrae.

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