The first song written for the "Notti Insonni" EP.
lyrics
Pride lyrics
(Chorus)
I’m alone again
Just this vicious cycle and me
Sitting in the dark
Wishing these walls could speak
And tell me things will get better
Tell me anything at all
How did I end up here
How did I end up alone
Verse 1
I wanna be the best, the best of all time/
I, wanna make you cry with my rhymes, as I blow your mind/
I want you to hate me, because you can’t escape me/
Realize that you can’t take me, cuz I am overtaking/
The game and it’s plain, I’m insane, I’m a beast/
On these beat so you see, that I have been unleashed/
And just I’m so angry at the earth like all of the time/
I spit a venomous verse, yeah I rip rhymes/
Wanna leave these emcees as empty as I am/
Wanna destroy the whole world, just because I can/
And you will never stop me, yeah that’s right I’m cocky/
I am original, the rest of y’all are copies/
My heart is frosty, my soul is ice cold/
I know I look young, but I’m a thousand years old/
When you’re this great you do not need friends/
So why should I care if I’m alone again?
(Chorus)
Verse 2
It is my intention, that when my name is mentioned/
In a negative sense, then kids will get detention/
Adults will get arrested, and populations tested/
To ensure that they love me for I will be respected/
You see I fear rejection, I cannot tolerate it/
And I will never rest in peace till I’m appreciated/
I swear I’ll tear down anybody who’s above me/
If I spare you, count yourself lucky/
I’ll only say this once, so make sure you listen/
Greatness is my mission, I’m burning up with ambition/
And I am so afraid that I’ll wake up in twenty years/
With an average job, average wife, and average kids/
Feeling trapped cuz I failed at rap, screw that/
Chip on my shoulder? Ha, it’s more like the whole bag/
I want to be remembered, I fear becoming nothing/
My heart is so ugly, how could God love me?
(Chorus)
Verse 3
I wrestle with myself literally every day/
Feels like I can’t win but I fight anyway/
I’m disposed to arrogance, try to stay humble/
But all this trash comes out, every time I stumble/
My heart is filled with rage, it’s time for me to quit/
And give it all to God, so He can handle it/
I’m tired of being tired, sick of being sick/
I swear that Imma explode, like tick, tick…
If there’s any hope it ain’t with me/
My only hope is that Christ can love me eternally/
Because I’m so lost, but He paid the cost/
Wrote the check in blood, cashed it on the Cross/
And I’m just blown away, by this amazing grace/
He’s heard my hate filled heart, but loves me anyway?
In the face of that, I think I finally know/
if I have Christ in my life, I'll never be alone/
(Chorus) x2
credits
from Notti Insonni (Sleepless Nights),
released January 8, 2015
Written by Thomas and Dondi Iannucci. Produced by Cameron Williamson. Guitar and vocals by Dondi Iannucci. Vocals by Thomas Iannucci. Violin by Aowl Owen.
Born in Hawaii during the summer of 1992, 23 year-old Italian-Filipino rapper Thomas Iannucci (aka Illtalian) was raised on
the island of Kauai, where he currently resides. An award-winning songwritier, Illtalian is also an unsigned rapper, and released his first studio EP "Notti Insonni" in January of 2015. Stylistically, his music is often compared to Eminem, Macklemore, and Lecrae.
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